You May Be Addicted to Stress
The egocentric fool is
innately terrified of female rejection because his selfish existence is
inherently dependent upon her guile and through her acceptance, the lie and its
"life" form are transmitted. Rejection tends to free his
consciousness to experience the terror that comes with waking up and realizing
what a fool he has become through his using which he calls loving.
Goals, women to support those goals,
drinking, drugs and violence form the order of descent from The Light.
Worry and study are other
forms of fixation and escape. Any happiness, security, salvation or cure which
rests on a person, place or thing is due to a fixation and is therefore
corruption which one senses after it has served its purpose.
Once you are hooked,
"they" (the "benevolent" sources of your corruption) can
make you think that if you give up their treatment, leave their church, give up
their booze, their music, all manner of tragedy will befall you but this is
already true. Tragedy already has befallen you through your dependence upon
these false sources of security. This is something which you usually realize
after you have let go of the fixation. At that time, the wicked person or group
can turn your thinking around to make you believe the horror just began,
whereas it is really just being discovered.
Remember that through your
"fixes" you have always made the reality of evil "go away”. The
moment you are rejected or otherwise lose the "friendly" object of
fixation, you feel as though you are being punished or cursed and your troubles
appear like retribution for not being loyal to your fixers. As the
"awful" truth appears and your bubble bursts, your shell begins to
crumble. Therefore, if you are selfish and care too much for your own
worthless existence, you will become once more loyal to your pleasures and to
the seducers who seem to hold the key to life.
The truth is that you never
really had security, well-being and happiness. Those scoundrels actually
robbed you of the very things they pretended to give. Unfortunately, just so
long as you remain proud you will want to go on believing you are getting while
you are being got. The truth will be a threat to your illusory sensuous
emotional existence, driving you closer to your corruptors and vices. Stubbornly
you fixate harder and harder to fill the void of your wretched soul.
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